Dildo, though I am sure it has a mind of its own.


I can see you
In places you never knew you were
In places You never wanted to be

I see you all of the time
When I cannot even see myself
In places you cannot see me

We met there sometimes
Times neither of us ever expect (though they happen all too often)
Times of vulnerability
Times when we are close enough to “lonely”

Times too far
Times too in between

At the Very least I do take solace
When it’s only you and I, just you and me
One of the times I can actually allow myself to feel anything 

 Forget the technicalities 

Step over that awkward line

Forget the space and distance,

the gaps between our times

There is a way with silence

Just as with words

A Rhyme and a reason

A cure for every curse

It’s as if I have taken the first step

Shredding Denile and whatever else is left

Over a years worth of wasted attempts

to prove a man my worth

The substancuality of my girth

the weight I was bearing

the humility of caring

sent me toppling over my tight rope

He shaded in my chalk outline

and he photographed my fall

I fell like a baby, cradle and all

What a fool luck has found me

Rightously, bold

Like our love was a story that needed to be told

A years worth of subtext

I pushed myself aside

But just enough, so you could get by

Once again the weight I was bearing

The embarrasment of caring

has sent me under my tight rope

He shaded in my chalk outline

and he photographed my fall

As I tumbled down like a baby

Cradle and all

I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that learning to forgive takes a lot of practice.

>I’ve learned how someone so small can leave an infinant void.

I’ve learned that friends can become strangers, and strangers can become friends.

I’ve learned that ignorance isn’t an excuse for the lack of compassion.

I’ve learned that some people will never, ever - ”get it”.

I’ve learned that the community of sorrow is the strongest of all.

I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of minutes.

I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.

It may be the last time you see them.

I’ve learned that love isn’t measured by the amount of time you have with someone.

I’ve learned that some sorrow is so deep that it has no words. But so is love.

 The rain falls like lead balls on the sidewalk

  The sky spans black anf gray and blue

  No worries, it’s just the outer layer

  It’s only a bruise

 The city bus is packed with addicts

 and tourists

 People reading articles about the terrorists

 some on their way to work

 We pretend like this works

 Living our lives under another jerks hand

 His eyes are on the prize

 while your head is in the sand